Karsagi

Never descriptive... I just want to apologize if some of what I write in my page seems stupid, odd (guess it does, especially for my actual age)...

Talking too much... Making much noise about what's better kept in allegoric images instead of clear words. That's what I become when I'm overflown with emotions. Emotions are my reason to live, though. Bad or good, let them just be bright and sincere. But flowing out of control never ends good for me.
I want to hide some of my footprints, I feel paranoic, I'm so afraid of being misunderstood, I now feel higher about things that were just some kind of crazy fun before. Love's getting higher, darkness is getting balanced with light, slight intuitive feelings are corrected with knowledge, and I feel no right to exploit one's vision for expressing myself, even if it still fits perfectly.
I said to myself one day in autumn, 'What you want to tell from your heart will likely come out corrupt and distorted'. You need to be pretty thoughtful with what you create; I'm not, I'm chaotic, emotional, still too young inside, even being inspired with something great I still mostly make cheap and naive things.
I feel I'm not worth my inspiration.
This does give some motivation, though.
But at this very moment, 6:30 a.m., it feels like I'd better spend some time on learning German as I planned, maybe sewing some clothes for my BJDs... Not drawing. Except some personal sketches, maybe.
I don't know.
In two months I had ran through what has taken me couple of years the previous time. Experience counts, but still the speed's too high, and when I now look at all the things proving those two months took place in real world, I just can't believe, I can't recognize the time point.
Strange night -- like any of mine since mid-October...

I got too bored and I just like memes, whatever

The bold ones apply to me, italic means I'm not sure.

I am under 18.
I am a cuddler. //I love hugs but almost never hug people on my own sudden intetion.
I am a morning person.
I am an only child.
I am currently in my pajamas.
I am currently pregnant.
I am left handed.
I am right handed.
I am ambidextrous.
I bite my nails.
I can be paranoid at times.
I enjoy folk music.
I enjoy smoothies.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I have a car.
I have/had a hard time paying attention at school.
I have a hidden talent.
I have a pet.
I have a tendency to fall for the “wrong” guy/girl.
I have all my grandparents.
I have been to another country.
I have been told that I have an unusual sense of humor.
I have or had broken a bone.
I have bathed someone.
I have changed a diaper.
I have changed a lot over the past year.
I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. //haha, my university groupmates never did.
I have had major/minor surgery.
I have killed another person.
I have had my hair cut within the last week.
I have mood swings.
I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life.
I have rejected someone before.
I like the taste of blood.
I like Michael Jackson. //he was obviously cool but I'm not his fan.
I love sleeping.
I love to shop.
I own 100 CDs or more.
I own and use a library card. //guess the one from my uni counts
I read books for pleasure in my spare time. //I used to, but I have read way too little since my last depression. That's sad but I just can't bring myself back to reading for some reason.
I sleep a lot during the day.
I watch soap operas on a regular basis.
I work at a job that I enjoy.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free.
I am wearing socks. //an odd fact: I do even when I sleep. My feet tend to feel cold.  
I am tired.
I love to paint/draw/sketch/sculpt. //all of these! Though I sculpt much more seldom than I make sketches and draw.
I consume at least one alcoholic drink every month. //guess I do

I have/had:

Finished college.
Smoked cigarettes.
Ridden every ride at an amusement park.
Collected something really stupid. //one-kopeck coins..? Kopeck is a Russian rouble's cent, actually one-kopeck coins are no more used nowadays 'cause one costs almost nothing (like, 50 times cheaper than a USD cent?), but they are just so small and cute I used to collect them when I was younger.
Gone to a concert.
Helped someone.
Spun turn tables.
Watched four movies in one night. //if series with one hour episodes count, then yes. HOURS OF WATCHING.
Been broken up with.
Taken a college level course. 
Been in a car accident. //guess small scratches are not really serious enough.
Been in a tornado.
Been in a hurricane.
Been in a cyclone.
Watched someone die.
Been to a funeral.
Ran a marathon.
Your parents got divorced. //they didn't do it officially, but in fact my father left the family when I was about three and has had his own life since then. He has always helped us a lot, though.
Cried yourself to sleep.
Spent over $200 in one day. //have I ever told that I have a few Asian ball-jointed dolls?
Cheated on someone.
Been cheated on.
Written a 10 page letter.
Had a best friend.
Lost someone you loved.
Skipped school.
Gotten in trouble for something you didn’t do.
Stolen books from the library.
Been in a mental hospital. //I never stayed there for days, but I had been attending a psychotherapist for about two years, alongside with taking some serious medicines.  
Watched the “Harry Potter” movies.
Fired a gun. //I really regret I don't have my own.  
Been in a school play.
Been fired from a job.
Taken a lie detector test.
Swam with dolphins.
Written poetry.
Read more than 20 books a year.
Gone to Europe.
Loved someone you shouldn’t have.
Used a coloring book over age 12.
Had surgery.
Had stitches.
Taken a taxi.
Had more than 5 online conversations going at once.
Had a hamster. //I don't like them. But I had a guinea pig when I was six.
Dyed your hair.
Had something pierced. //I wear four earrings.
Gotten straight A’s.
Been handcuffed.

My hair is naturally the color:

Light brown
Medium brown
Dark brown
Blond(e)
Black
Dirty blonde
Strawberry blond
Multicolored
Red

My eyes are:

Brown
Dark Brown
Blue
Green
Hazel
Light brown
Gray

People sometimes label me as:

Slut.
Boyish.
Colorful.
Ugly.
Nerd. //that's what I tend to seem IRL when we're not quite familiar to each other.

Some of my biggest fears are:

Spiders/other insects.
Slimy things. //not really a fear, but just... eww.
Dying/Afterlife
Doctor/dentist appointments.
Hospitals.
Needles.
Disease.
Being alone in the dark.
Heights/Falling
Small spaces.
Oceans/large bodies of water.
Large animals.
Small animals.
Open spaces. //I do feel a bit uncomfortable at open spaces. Small ones are better. They're cozy.
Lightning/Fire.
Tornadoes.
Clustered holes.
Bodily fluids.
Corpses.
Thunder/loud noises. //thunder is okay, but loud noises made by big mechanisms really scare me.

I have:

A friend with benefits.
A laptop in my room.
A television in my room.
Good grades. //mostly... I may fail sometimes during the semester but usually manage to pass the exams with A's.
My own car.
Parents who are still married.
A dog.
A cat.
A game console.